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Heart so full…

Posted by Michelle on Oct 27, 2008 in Parenting | 0 comments

Today isn’t any particularly special day.

Nothing of any considerable note happened.

Yet today, while doing nothing in particular, I felt my heart almost break when I realized how much I love my daughter and husband. They are my world, my everything. I was whole before they came into my life but with them, I am complete.

I mused to The Hubster ™ as we drifted off to sleep last night that you don’t know true fear until you find someone to love. Whether that person is your Other ™ and/or your child(ren), it is in the same moment when you realize how deeply you love them that you also realize exactly how much you can fear anything bad happening to them.

The Little Empress snuggled next to me as I did the laundry earlier, pressing her little face against my arm as she does when she’s tired, craving the warmth and security of Mommy so that she could sleep. And in that moment, I truly realized what it was to be her mother. Though I’ve always been her mother, the gravity of it all just hit me like a ton of bricks. I just held her and rocked her like I did when she was just a wee thing, kissing her brow and whispering the quiet one-sided conversation of a mother to her sleeping babe, quiet songs of love that may or may not have any words that could be understood by anyone else. And I wished so much for time to stop or at least slow down to let me capture this moment, this ordinary Monday night when I held my drowsy baby in my arms and felt like my heart would overflow with love.